baileythorne (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} baileythorne) wrote,@ 2008-04-13 22:40:00 |
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Life is uneventful. Calm, Comfortable, Boring.
Life is a series of projects for now: taxes, refi the townhouse, find an investment adviser I trust and quit ignoring what's happening with the money I put aside for retirement.... and my garden. I'm working on a better me.
Nothing new. Gym workouts and Tango class every week. Tango private and work trade every weekend. Cribbage on Sundays. Books: Mostly about the wives & children of Henry VIII at the moment. Video: Watched Season I of the Tudors and now I am working my way through all of Farscape for a few months. For variety, I visit with friends out of town or make a trip to my dad's beach house.
I'm clearing everything from my bedroom that's a "project". Did a bunch of sewing over the last two week, some gluing, some other fixing, and tossed some "projects" in the Goodwill bag. I've had clothing that needed repair hanging in my closet pretty much since I moved into my townhouse about 18 months ago. Once I decided to just deal with it, it really didn't take that long to finish. Lesson learned. The room feels better when I don't see several "you have failed to do this yet" projects staring at me every time I enter the room.
Kink: I went to the recent TMG education event. Rorie from D.C. taught on Interrogation Play and it was funny! "So Missy, we want to know who organized the orgy with the football team last Thursday night and we think you were involved..." May be the only local kink event I attend this year. Touched base with a few people I like, had no expectations, and didn't stay for the second class. Enjoyed myself.
Surgery: results are not what I hoped for. Seems that "brain plasticity" diminishes over the age of 40. Hey, I don't remember this conversation before surgery! Now you tell me? I'm 49. But I'm not dead yet... I still have a numb spot and it may never go away. I'm dealing. I could, however, have avoided the additional scarring if I'd skipped the surgery. I'm a bit miffed. But I have to be honest with myself... I would have chosen the surgery in any case because I always want to try for the best outcome. Lesson learned. And if I knew him better, I apologize to the surgeon who gave me that exact advice (don't have surgery) about the unkind thoughts I had about him at the time.
Changes: time for a haircut. About 10 inches I think. It will still touch my shoulders, but won't cause such a problem when I dance. Or with the drains in the bathtub. Or with shedding around the house. It might actually hold curls without all the weight pulling them out. We'll see. Next visit to my hair stylist is targeted for May. Oh, and she's fun to see in any case. She's on the Carolina Roller Girls team!
Weddings Past: I attended a wedding recently that was just depressing. The topic of conversation among those of us very close to the couple was about the recent physical brawl between them. I used to live with him. I decided his temper wasn't something I could live with. I encouraged him to date her because it would ease my way out the door. Well, I know for sure at this point she experienced that negative behavior before the wedding. Oh, and he dropped a pre-nuptial agreement on her the week before the wedding and said "sign or I won't be at the wedding" (ok, he was probably more tactful but that was the essence of the message). She protested. She signed.
WHY would anyone do this? Background: She's late 30's and this is her 1st wedding. She wants kids. I feel like I'm watching a car wreck in action. I realized I need to cut my ties to this group of friends. Not the kind of people I want to spend time with. So, why has it taken me the 10 months I was living with him and the 18 months since I left to figure that out?
I like to be able to say I'm on good terms with all of my ex-boyfriends. I wish the best for him. I no longer feel the need to stay in touch. In fact I feel the need to stay away.
Weddings Future: I am thrilled about an upcoming wedding. Another man I dated. Probably the man I've loved the most intensely over my lifetime. Even now, over 5 years later he's still important to me. I went to visit last year and met his fiancé. They are good for each other. I need to know there are couples like this out there. Really. They bring out the best in each other and are better for their union. I won't attend the wedding due to the distance, but I'm very happy for them.
Life is a series of projects for now: taxes, refi the townhouse, find an investment adviser I trust and quit ignoring what's happening with the money I put aside for retirement.... and my garden. I'm working on a better me.
Nothing new. Gym workouts and Tango class every week. Tango private and work trade every weekend. Cribbage on Sundays. Books: Mostly about the wives & children of Henry VIII at the moment. Video: Watched Season I of the Tudors and now I am working my way through all of Farscape for a few months. For variety, I visit with friends out of town or make a trip to my dad's beach house.
I'm clearing everything from my bedroom that's a "project". Did a bunch of sewing over the last two week, some gluing, some other fixing, and tossed some "projects" in the Goodwill bag. I've had clothing that needed repair hanging in my closet pretty much since I moved into my townhouse about 18 months ago. Once I decided to just deal with it, it really didn't take that long to finish. Lesson learned. The room feels better when I don't see several "you have failed to do this yet" projects staring at me every time I enter the room.
Kink: I went to the recent TMG education event. Rorie from D.C. taught on Interrogation Play and it was funny! "So Missy, we want to know who organized the orgy with the football team last Thursday night and we think you were involved..." May be the only local kink event I attend this year. Touched base with a few people I like, had no expectations, and didn't stay for the second class. Enjoyed myself.
Surgery: results are not what I hoped for. Seems that "brain plasticity" diminishes over the age of 40. Hey, I don't remember this conversation before surgery! Now you tell me? I'm 49. But I'm not dead yet... I still have a numb spot and it may never go away. I'm dealing. I could, however, have avoided the additional scarring if I'd skipped the surgery. I'm a bit miffed. But I have to be honest with myself... I would have chosen the surgery in any case because I always want to try for the best outcome. Lesson learned. And if I knew him better, I apologize to the surgeon who gave me that exact advice (don't have surgery) about the unkind thoughts I had about him at the time.
Changes: time for a haircut. About 10 inches I think. It will still touch my shoulders, but won't cause such a problem when I dance. Or with the drains in the bathtub. Or with shedding around the house. It might actually hold curls without all the weight pulling them out. We'll see. Next visit to my hair stylist is targeted for May. Oh, and she's fun to see in any case. She's on the Carolina Roller Girls team!
Weddings Past: I attended a wedding recently that was just depressing. The topic of conversation among those of us very close to the couple was about the recent physical brawl between them. I used to live with him. I decided his temper wasn't something I could live with. I encouraged him to date her because it would ease my way out the door. Well, I know for sure at this point she experienced that negative behavior before the wedding. Oh, and he dropped a pre-nuptial agreement on her the week before the wedding and said "sign or I won't be at the wedding" (ok, he was probably more tactful but that was the essence of the message). She protested. She signed.
WHY would anyone do this? Background: She's late 30's and this is her 1st wedding. She wants kids. I feel like I'm watching a car wreck in action. I realized I need to cut my ties to this group of friends. Not the kind of people I want to spend time with. So, why has it taken me the 10 months I was living with him and the 18 months since I left to figure that out?
I like to be able to say I'm on good terms with all of my ex-boyfriends. I wish the best for him. I no longer feel the need to stay in touch. In fact I feel the need to stay away.
Weddings Future: I am thrilled about an upcoming wedding. Another man I dated. Probably the man I've loved the most intensely over my lifetime. Even now, over 5 years later he's still important to me. I went to visit last year and met his fiancé. They are good for each other. I need to know there are couples like this out there. Really. They bring out the best in each other and are better for their union. I won't attend the wedding due to the distance, but I'm very happy for them.
I sent flowers last Friday as a token of my support and good wishes. Orchids. The voice mail "thank you" I got Friday made made it worth every penny! It think it evoked more emotion within me than I've felt in a very long time. Joy.
